“Bodyguard” is what they called me since the first day of my new school just because I was on the healthier side to getting ragged by a couple of girls because I was smiling to the people living in orphanages which were the last days of school. Since then, many good, as well as bad things have happened that have helped me shape the person I am today.
I never told my parents about the same because I wanted to prove that I was stronger than those comments.
Soon I passed my 10th grade and let these feelings go away, to start a new life, which indeed has been going well, but somewhere it shattered my confidence, I stopped living myself.
I always had an inclination towards the fashion world and Bollywood, but with this body I knew I wouldn’t land up anywhere because I knew I was unfit.
Post 10th there was this sudden self-realisation and I immediately decided to give up junk food and switch to home food and started exercising daily.
The industry that I wanted to enter into was a little risky because one day you are at the top and the other day it’s all gone, you’ve disappeared. My parents have always been supportive of my decisions but at the same time wanted me to not leave one thing to pursue other. They asked me to complete my education first. Soon I cleared my IPCC (2nd level of CA) and started my journey in pageants. To groom myself for the industry I wanted to step in, I went ahead and took up the necessary training and it helped me boost my confidence.
When I reflect back, I see how much I’ve grown since then and that has only been possible because of one lesson I learned— never giving up attitude.
When I started my journey in pageants I was still on the chubbier side and the pageants I didn’t win, I always made sure to take feedback and work on it and come back stronger. If I had to describe myself in one word it would be a diligent person because it takes a lot of focus to pursue two completely opposite things in life.
Now that I have transformed and won few pageants I do have certain school friends who come up and apologise to me, and I simply say, I have already forgiven you. As Nelson Mandela rightly said, ‘Forgiveness is the strongest weapon we have.’
I thank god for letting me go through all these situations that happened to me throughout my school time, I do regret not having any school friend but all I know is it made me a stronger person, it motivates me to be better everyday and I never let my inner Divija die. Because you can only stand out if you become yourself and not someone else.
Always be thankful to the situations you face. It makes you stronger.
Always let these feelings fleet away and focus on starting a new life.
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